Hey readers.
Sorry for the long break but it's been a lot this year. I wrote in the beginning of the year that 2013 was going to be magical, and let's just say that I hasn't really been for me. So far 2013 has been a kind of rough. It's not a dance on roses, as we would say in Swedish.
I've done some traveling, to Stockholm and the US (west coast). I worked like a mad women and read a lot. I feel better since the last post.
Due to all that has happened this year, good and bad, I stopped caring about the small things. I do not care what people think about me or my behavior, how I dress and so on. I really couldn't care less. I gotten to a point where I'm so comfortable with myself. There are more important things to care about then my looks or what other people think.
I'm a introverted, environmental, feminist, vegan, book nerd that wear overly colourful dresses, is full a lot of quirks and never know what to do with my arms but I'm fine with that. I just embrace all that. This is me, like it or not, I don't care.
This has of course to do with age too. I've always been confident with how I look and my body (for as long as I can remember at least).
I am a bit less happy now a days but that's probably not going to change anytime time soon.
Something that has happened when I really stopped caring and being less happy is this:
I got hit on. Like crazy, man!
I don't think I ever in my life gotten hit on so many times as like the last couple of month. Who knew? Being a bit sad and very comfortable with oneself makes this Jenny (more) attractive.
Because of this I have also started dating. At the same moment that I started dating I realized why I hadn't been dating. People. I like them okay but then if you start dating and kind of not want to do it anymore is like a break up with someone you don't even know. I just don't feel like some people have the right to take up my time.
A good thing though is that last years involuntary celibacy is over.
I could write about my first world problems when it comes to dating and all, but I don't think you and me are on there yet. Let's just keep the dating part to the above text.
I'm moving in about two weeks. To a shared apartment in Mitte. Smaller room, higher rent, further away from work, but I'm really looking forward to it. My future flatmates are great and it will also be a meatless apartment with all of us being on a vegetarian/vegan diet.
I really like my job. Selling books is something I'm good at. Really good at. When I talked to some Swedish colleagues about selling, I told them that for me, I envy people that haven't read the books that I recommend to them, because they can still have that first impression, while I can't. They all smiled. I really envy people who haven't read some great books yet.
And summer is coming!
I know that Berlin hasn't shown itself on it's best side, weather wise, but I'm sure it will come. The best thing about summer too is visits from friends. A friend I made in the US and my little brother is coming in August. Some friends from Stockholm are coming by in late June. Another during the midsummers weekend and I'm hoping that even more will come. I like to have guests over.
I will try to write more here, but we'll see how that goes. So many things on my mind, so many books to read, dates to go on (haha) and gatherings to try to social at.
Bis zum nächtes mal!
Puss & Kram
