Berlin, sometimes you suck.

I was in a pretty good mood yesterday and was biking to meet Smooth (SHE'S BACK!) and Jake. I had my headphones on with indie popish music, a new route to take to the meeting point and the sun was shining.
I got to where I should be and notice that my bag, that was on the back of my bike was gone. Probably stolen somewhere along the way or fallen of which I didn't notice it. I started to panic and I didn't know what to do. I started biking back the way I had come hoping for a miracle that my bag was somewhere on the way. It was not and I almost wanted to cry. I wasn't like I had so much of valuable in it, like 20euros in my wallet but no ID or credit card. But my camera was in it. It's a shitty camera but anyway I felt bad losing it. No more picture taking I guess.
Thing that where in my bag was also: a comic about zombies, two books (one that I just started (sad face) and one that I had read), my gloves, a usb stick and batteries. Nothing that can't be replaced but my good mood turned into a bad one as I was biking home, not really up to meeting anyone anymore.


I got home and eat like five mango fruits and watch an entire season of Modern Family, which made me feel better. Just wanting to be alone and not socialize in any way. My phone rang  a couple of times but I didn't want to pick up. This wouldn't have been as bad maybe if this was the first time my bag got stolen, this is the second. Last time was way worse but then I manged to save the camera. I just feel like a dumb ass every time I lose something or get my stuff stolen. I get so tried of myself sometimes. Can't I just be a bit better at holding on to my stuff? I was mad at myself, people and the world.
Berlin, sometimes you suck and sometimes I also suck.

I'm hoping that some nice person has found my bag and will give it to the police but the chance for this feels slim. I'm crossing my fingers though.
Note to everyone, fasten your bag to your bike good so that nothing can happened to it. I will do this every time now.

Let's not end this on a sad note.
It's a beautiful day, it's the weekend and I'm off work. I have a lot of books to read and time to write long emails to friends. Berlin is my oyster today.