The "I love you"-conversation

I'm not in a romantic relationship but I am going though a crises which lead to this conversation (and others like it):

- Where you drunk last night when you called me?
- Last night or do you mean this morning?
- Last night.
- No.
- Oh. Okay.
- I didn't mean it that way...
- I didn't think you meant it that way. You just never said it before.
- Of course I love you. Are you kidding me? Of course I do.
- I love you too. You just never said it before. And just because I'm in a crises you said it.
- I guess I have a hard time expressing my emotions...
- Yeah, but this was the first time you said it. I love you too. Of course I do.
- You know I love you, don't you?
- Yes.
We hugged and all was good.

As John Green writes in The Fault in Our Stars: "That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt." 
I haven't felt all the pain I need to feel and I'm still handling it.
My friends are supporting me though this but they just can't imagine the what I'm going through even though their best efforts. 

It's hard sometimes to tell a friend that you do love them/her/him.
I had tears in my eyes the entire time of this conversation, but I'm really glad I had it.
The crises I'm going thought can't be written about in public and I do feel better after a couple of days, but every day is different. I still break apart a second later when I think I was okay the second earlier.
This might not be the best thing in the world but I am handling the situation at hand. Or at least trying to.
Some things in life nobody tells you or even know how to deal with. Things, that you never thought you would have to deal with. Or at least hoped to never have to deal with.
I will live but it will take some time before I'm back to "normality".
Until then I will make sure that my friends know that I love them.
I will cry, break down and don't know what to do with myself - all part of the process. 
Until I feel better, I will not write again. This might take a while (taken under consideration, that I will go to the US on holiday and have a lot of work a head of me before that).
Friends, I love you.  
Until next time!