2012.

Christmas in Sweden passed. New years eve in Berlin.

Short about those events in that Christmas was nice and calm home in a tiny town an hour away from Stockholm with mum, dad and brother. Big sister, big brother and the nieces came by also. A lot of cooking and a lot of food. And a lot of time to read.

Mom at Christmas in Sweden.

New years eve started slow and then we ended up at a couchsurfing pre-party some blocks away from Sinead's place. We watched the fireworks (people where crazy with their fireworks) close to the Warschuer brigde. We walked around looking for a club, found a drum band and danced to them and ended up at a 80's party after some time and had a blast.

Fireworks at new years eve.

Now it's 2012 (year of the Maya apocalyptic )

I have nowhere to live so I'm half permanent with Sinead, in the apartment under mine that I had the past month. I have no idea what I want to do, more then I want to stay in Berlin. This feels like this is the town I should be in. And four month is not enough. Something, I don't know what will happen if I stay, something good. Also I'm really not ready to live in Stockholm or Sweden again.

The other day I sat down and wrote applications in German. I wanted to get it so correct as I can so I concentrated, put my headphones on and listened to (folk metal) music in German and wrote and wrote and also applied for some jobs. I got so in to it that when I looked up it was three a clock and I hadn't eaten anything yet. I'm glad that I did it though and I made a great lunch afterwords. Every day since that day I have applied for jobs.

I also stared looking in to classes in German to get some study money from Sweden. I speak good German and understand good. Writing is a bit hard still and reading takes some time even if I do understand. I talked to a friend about it today, about taking a class, and he was really positive about it, so I feel more sure now that I will read an advanced German class hopefully this month.

I'm going to check out some schools tomorrow and sign up and probably be the worse in the class, since I haven't taken classes in so long. But that will just (hopefully) make me want to get better.

Reading life is good. I had a lot of time to read lately and that feels good.

I haven't written so much though. Maybe because there is to much people all the time and I don't feel space to write. I'm going to spend a day or two in Smooth's trailer in Berlin for some alone time for writing and reading. I feel like I need it.

When I have all figured out, I'm going to find a permanent place to stay at. I feel positive about it and glad that I have friends who let me crash at their place and be supportive to me.
Next time I write here I hope that I at least figured something out. I believe in 2012.